If I want to lose weight.
Thats right. I have been trying to lose weight for months now. And I havent seen one effin result. So I am less and less motivated. More and more frustrated. And definitely more depressed.
Last month, I ate healthy all month long. Billy would help me by saying "No Fries. No Ice Cream. No Candy." Oh, how I wanted to murder him. And yet, how I love him so very much. Hes sick of my complaining. He wants me to be happy. So, why is it so hard?!?! I honestly didnt see any results from last month. But then again, I didn't exercise one bit. But I learned how to control my cravings. I learned to portion my food. And I learned that apples and peanut butter are deliciously healthy!
There are many things I need to work on to reach my ultimate goal and so I have thought of smaller goals
1. Eat more vegetables
2. Work out 3 days a week (I honestly should work at 5 but hey! i'm starting out small)
3. Watch my sugar in take
What is my goal, you ask? Well, last time I saw my weight was in December when I went to the doctor. I haven't weighed myself since, mainly because I curse the scale every time I see the big fat number: 179. I want to be what I was in High School. It was prefect and just right: 140. I know its gonna take a lot. And I know it'll be a lot of sacrifice. But I want to look good.
My plan is to take it a week at a time. Each week is a fresh new start. Watch Out World!! Here comes the new me!!
Whats that I hear? You wanna join me? YAY! It will be so much easier with support. Then we shall say: Watch Out World!! Here comes the new us!!
oh shahny. You are beautiful the way you are.
ReplyDeleteI do understand loosing weight does bring up the self esteem and if will make you happy thats great! im right behing you!!!!
Im sure you will get to your goal weight!
:D
Im determined!! :)
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ReplyDeleteShahnaz, you are the most awesomest person ever to have the courage to even think about admiting your weight to your family and friends. I think you are great just the way you are~ but I know how important it is to love yourself! Honestly I think you would do GREAT at Weight Watchers. They will teach you so much, and help you create a lifestyle that will support the goal weight you desire! I know, taking advise from a FAT PERSON sounds ridiculous, but I have TRIED many diets and such. TRUST ME, after I have this LAST BABY I am heading straight to Weight Watchers and not going to look back. Just think, you only have what, 40 lbs to lose? You could MELT that away in a good 12 weeks! I know you can do it!
ReplyDeleteAww thank you Emily. So far, I'm seeing results, little ones but they are still good. I think when I reach a plateau, I'll start doing Weight Watchers. I'm still unsure if I'll join and pay or if I'll jus use all the tools my aunt gave me. But, I am on a mission lol :)
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